Herp test came back negative, but that doesn’t mean much at this point, since the sample was taken so late in the “outbreak” (if that’s what it was). However, since seeing the gum specialist, I have developed a spread of what looks like chickenpox on my abdomen, butt, legs and arms. It’s not very concentrated, but it’s noticeable, and I’m seeing movement up my chest and into my face a little bit. I had the pox as a kid, but they say if your experience with it was mild, it can recur, especially if you have a shaky immune system, which I’m pretty sure I do. Early death, here I come!
Anyway, the itching is mild at worst, so I just don’t know what to think at this point. My two theories are chickenpox and scabies. I just hope, if it is the former, it doesn’t turn into shingles – I am not a 70-year-old woman yet! I have dealt with bedbugs before, so the concept of scabies makes me dizzy with annoyance and disgust. I really hope I’m not infested with mites again. I am not a dirty person, I promise! I’m just prone to infestations…
I went home today for a short nap. I hate that I am simultaneously sedentary and disease ridden – I can’t tell which is filling me with malaise – and I need to snap out of it. It’s been really tough lately. I am in the deepest throes of SAD and I can’t seem to crawl out for air. =( Help?
This weekend was decent. I got to see Tod on Saturday, which was a much-needed respite from the rest of my life. We watched “Across the Universe” and he went grocery shopping with me. Sunday, I went grocery shopping again (Meijer sales and my stupid need to follow them…), did a little laundry, went to church with NH (from work) and visited my mom in the afternoon. Later that night, the plan was to hang with M1 for a bit and then meet up with C for pool at some bowling alley, but it didn’t end up happening. Hopefully C was not accosted by a Mexican behind a Dumpster; I have not received word to the contrary. M1 and I chatted about days past, dozed while watching “American Gladiators” and then she headed home at 10. I actually got a decent amount of sleep, which made it utterly baffling when I was exhausted come 11 a.m. =\ I really hate feeling like this.
I’m double dutying on work right now. I like when my boss goes out of town so I can do this without feeling as guilty and/or being as paranoid. Also, it seems two of the few people who can recognize the screen for job #2 are out of the office, so that makes the circumstances ideal. I wish I had started earlier!
Another thing I wish… that Grand Rapids was closer. Everyone has busy schedules, but I would love to be able to get together for lunch with the GR girls. I know eventually I’ll have enough overtime built up to take a day off, so hopefully that’ll be on the agenda. We’ll see. I would love to be going up there for a weekend with Tod and be able to split off to hang with them for a bit on Friday or something. I hate that, when we go, I feel like we have to be quick about everything. Not that anyone makes us feel like an imposition, but I feel like one anyway and don’t want to overstay our welcome by being there more than just the one pertinent night (for a party, etc.). It would be awesome if I could win a night at the Amway Grand or something, so everyone could come chill in our awesome room. (Not that I’ve ever been there, but I bet it’s pretty sweet.)
ANYway, enough of that. Back to work!