when she bars the door and strikes a match

I am speechless. I have no idea how to express to all of you the realization I’ve now come to about myself: I am insane. I am honest to goodness loco, people. And all it took for me to see that was an empty 1-liter bottle of Mountain Dew.
Said bottle was labeled in black Sharpie, [...]

sometimes you just have to laugh

When you get out to your car, preparing to head off for an appointment for which you’re already late, and notice your gas tank is almost empty.
Then remember that, the other day, you hit a post outside a sketchy supermarket and there’s a big crushed area on your back bumper.
Your therapist thinks you’re going to [...]

charity: water

I kept my beer tear free

After some indecision at work today, the aforementioned coworker and I decided to go to trivia at the bar instead of the Grizzlies game. We did glance up from time to time to see the score, and, now that I look it up, I see the Grizz did beat the Wiz (haha), but oh well. [...]

uh, scratch that

I returned to the gym tonight, which means my first workout in a month AND my first weigh-in in the same month. Appears I was wrong about the not-losing-weight thing. My apologies to any and all coworkers who read this blog (none) who were offended by my incredulity at their suggestions that I was skinnier. [...]

day one. slow down

One of the major lessons I’ve learned from being sick is that I need to slow down. I am in a hurry about 98% of the time. I get impatient and antsy. I feel the need to complete tasks as quickly as possible (unless they really consume me and compel me to take my time) [...]

relax

Today has been a day of reflection for me—you know, whenever I wasn’t napping from sheer exhaustion or struggling to get comfortable in the recliner. There was a lot of those things too.
But today reminded me how much I need to relax. I am not skilled at being sick. Those people who know how to [...]

before I delve in

A few things that make me smile:

Good conversation
Laughing so hard I can’t breathe
Glancing at the clock when it’s 8:26
Being reminded that good people exist in the world
Making a new friend
Seeing a glimmer of something new and exciting on the horizon
Snuggling up under a fleece blanket on a chilly day
Thinking endless possibilities remain for the future
Cute [...]

every single day

If I look back on my life to date, I am overwhelmed by how blessed I’ve been. If I had been able to get past the heavy curtain of depression over the years, I would’ve been able to see it too. But I couldn’t. And I won’t say I’ve ripped down the curtain and walked [...]

contrasts

I decided to try out a women’s small group tonight that meets in a home nearby. I got in touch with one of the leaders through Heartsong, the new church I’ve been attending of late. The women were very kind and shared a lot of interesting, heartfelt, funny stories about their lives. But what astounded [...]