step one.

Register a domain. Check! I’m now the proud owner of lemonslush.com! It’s not much to look at at the moment, but I’ll be working on it soon. Bryan surfed over to GoDaddy this weekend, and I just happened to have him check on lemonslush.com, as it’s been parked with a placeholder page forever now. And [...]

landmines

It’s utterly depressing to be offhandedly browsing your favorite online dating site and come across your ex-boyfriend’s profile on page 3. He’s still a 94% match. Funny how that doesn’t mean anything in the end. Funny. Or heartbreaking. Take your pick.
Believe I’ve reached the second “D” now.

sometimes you just have to laugh

When you get out to your car, preparing to head off for an appointment for which you’re already late, and notice your gas tank is almost empty.
Then remember that, the other day, you hit a post outside a sketchy supermarket and there’s a big crushed area on your back bumper.
Your therapist thinks you’re going to [...]

negative thinking

I know I’m a pessimist by nature. And, sure, my negative thoughts do overwhelm me from time to time. But it wasn’t until someone laid it out with neat little section headings that I realized just how messed up my thinking really was. As Dennis put it, “10/10.” These are all true of me (from [...]

positivity

After what seemed like two weeks of hell on earth, I am feeling quite a bit better. It was a combo platter of too much stress (external and internal), PMS, varying levels of anxiety and a dip into the old vat of depression. As soon as Flo came to town—Alabama guy too—I began feeling leaps [...]

oh, tears

Really, really hoping it’s PMS. I think I wrote that sometime last month – or was it the month before? Either way, now that it’s getting colder outside, and I’ve been living in a place without friends for an even longer period, I have that lingering fear that it’s depression that’s making me cry, not [...]

preparing for another weekend alone

This is getting kind of old. I know the problem is I’m not independent enough, or at least that I’m too conventional to come up with some thrills-a-minute stuff to fill up my weekend. But, really, it’s incredibly lonely here in the Mid-South. I think I’m going to try to wake up earlyish and hit [...]

self defeatist

In spite of all my whining about not getting enough sleep this week, I’m still awake. Not only am I still awake, but I’m BLOGGING. How inane. It’s just about midnight and I’m about 1/3 done with the room move. Not finishing tonight, but I had to share my pride over getting that far – [...]

seeking help

I think now is the perfect time for self improvement. I have gone through almost 24 years of my life having so many goals, dreams and wishes for myself, but it seems as though the best things have come and gone. I still have great friends, for whom I count my blessings daily. I have [...]

muddled thoughts

I’ve spent the past couple of days a befuddled, anxious, hopeless wreck. And I have no idea why. I’ve tried numerous times to calm myself down and put things in perspective, but so far, it hasn’t worked. It started with being sad about Tod, but then my psyche took the sadness in 20 different directions. [...]